Its been 2.5 years since I last posted anything here. I am not even sure what prompted me to visit my blog again to be honest. A lot has happened in 2.5 yrs….. a new job, P started kindergarten, my BFF moved 3 hours away, house Renos , family vacations and another loss.
Almost a year after my early miscarriage I found myself surprisingly pregnant naturally again. We were cautiously excited for 3 days but then I had some really painful cramping and the next day the bleeding started. It was a holiday weekend so we ended up in the ER where I tested really positive for pregnancy but they could not locate a pregnancy in my uterus. They sent me home with orders to come back in 2 days for repeat ultrasound to see if they could see anything in my uterus then. 1 day later I was in excruciating pain on my right side and the bleeding was still there. Back to the hospital I went where I stayed for 3 days of monitoring . My pregnancy was ectopic and any of the cautious happiness we had quickly fell away to sadness and concern for my health. I ended up in emergency surgery because my Fallopian tube had burst, I was bleeding internally and the tube had to be removed along with the fetus.
We are approaching the end of our agreed upon timeframe to try and conceive on our own before the husband goes for a V. He’s turning 40 in a little over a month and I’m now considered “high risk” since I am over 35 years old now. We decided that we didn’t want to be having babies in our 40s. I am not sure how I feel about ending this stage of our life yet.